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Monday, February 22, 2010

never thought that i could love

The title says it all, "never thought that i could love". Sometimes, things just turn upside down. We can never know when is the right time for the right feeling for love. We may be happy at first but as time goes by, feelings might fade away without even noticing it.

For the past months, i've been in this really topsy-turvy situation in which i can not completely explain. Oh yes, i am in love with this wonderful person whom i really cherish. He was the best person that I've ever met in my college life. He always makes me happy at the same time he makes me feel sad.

I had consider him as one of my favorite persons. We made fun moments together and even share unforgettable experiences. He was the BEST and my HAPPINESS, and he knew it. I can't even believe it. We we're ones friends turned lovers then again friends and now lovers.

I never thought that i will fall for this person. I was once irritated to him but this life is really crazy cause there is this one instance that made me feel that he will always be here for me. For that day on, I started to love him more than the feeling I had for him before.

I now believe in the saying, love is sweeter the second time around. But not all second chances are happy and exciting. Sometimes, the ugly truth comes in the situation. I can not explain this wicked feeling of hate whenever I hear this unexpected and shocking truth. At first, I really cry whenever I remember everything he said, but as time goes by, I feel nothing, I feel numb and I even get used to it.

I LOVE HIM and that's it. Whether we are in a bad or in a good situation, I'll always love him. There may be BUTs and NOs that will arise but one thing is for sure, I've given him so much love that I can't even think of leaving him. Time can only tell whether we are going to last or to fall apart. BUT for now, I'll just enjoy the feeling of love whenever I am with him. **

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

France can never be a place for me

I love French for so many reasons but I can not understand why this language can not love me. Foreign Language was really my favorite course for these past years but I never know why. I love Spanish, a little of Japanese and a lot of French. I have always instilled in my mind that someday I will learn how to speak it and I will love the language more than I had loved any other.

I am just a simple dreamer and a traveler in my own dreams. I have always wished that I can go to France and experience the life of fashion, history and culture but I HAVE FAILED. These dreams of mine can never become true. I can never go to FRANCE or any where I desire to go.

FRANCE will always be a dream and a fantasy for me. I HAVE FAILED MYSELF and I HAVE DESTROYED my dream. I have no FUTURE in this program that I chose and now I am losing my hope to fulfil my dreams.

Learning that language is FUN and exciting but somehow it made me realize that this language is NOT FOR ME, but not ONLY THE LANGUAGE but ALSO COUNTRY.

Now... Frustration comes and I am concluding to this, "I can never speak the language as well as I can never step my foot on the glamourous country of FRANCE" :'(

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Isn't he HOT???


Isn't he HOT???



Oh my!! he is really HOT!! His looks, his eyes, his voice!! Everything about HIM is HOT!! ADAM LEVINE, i really like YOU :) Oh well, too much of him... :) I can't get over of the song that I've watched a couple of minutes ago in MTv, "Won't go home without you" Time really passes so fast that it was just March of last year when my father and I watched Maroon 5-Live in Manila. The concert was great and he was really awesome!! I really like the part when the band played, "Makes me Wonder" as their opening song. Everybody was screaming and singing to their tune. Oh, how I wish I could meet him in person and ask him some questions :) If Maroon 5 would be coming back in the Philippines, I would surely plead my parents to buy me good tickets for their concert.


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Here are some of the Last Year's Maroon 5 concert pix in Manila

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

"we said let go, but i keep on hanging on"


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"we said let go, but i keep on hanging on"
aww, that was the saddest part of the song in which I got a last song syndrome.
Mariah is really back and I love her songs "Bye Bye" and now, "I stay in love with you". I can't believe that I got addicted to it when I first saw its music video and I never stop playing the song for several times in my music player. The video was really cool and classic 'cause Mariah's outfit really matches her role as a Vegas girl. I really admire her at that video 'cause she really looks classic and her emotions were so true (oh please!! she is really good).
**Even without the video itself, I still fell in love with the song.
It seems like I really got into the song. I even forgot my 2008 favorite song from Lady Gaga, Poker Face and Lene Martin's 2000 song hit, Sitting down here.
Oh well, she really puts her full emotions in the song and I really can feel it. This song really rocks and I can even relate to it. :( She is really one of kind and I love her style. :)
**Good for you, Mariah!! I really like your style :)
Click on the link below to watch the video of I stay in love